I won’t make a 2011 highlight post because I honestly don’t think I’ve done anything significant this year, other than participating in the World Youth Day for the first time. It really was a difficult year that constantly shitted on me or rather, I let it.

Even though I was pretty aimless this year, I got to say that 2011 has taught me so many things about myself. I’d like to remember 2011 as a year of self-understanding. I wasn’t able to spread out my photography and that made me despondent for some time, leaving me with this feeling of uncertainty, about my future career, really deep in my gut. And it’s still there. I feel slightly comfortable in my youth (having turned just 18 this year) but I know that comfort is keeping me from pushing forward. 2011 is the year I tried to accept my weaknesses and fears.

I will be 19 next year. A little less younger, but I hope to God a whole lot braver.

This is so cliche but for next year I will pour my heart and brain out into this little “Do Me” journal (I don’t know why I made those poster-like images above, maybe I’m just practicing for my marketing classes next year hehe). Every idea and every drop of creative juice that I might produce (hey that rhymed) will be put into this journal. It’s not enough that I just keep them inside, I plan on actually executing them.

One of my fears is that no one would like ‘my’ photography because they don’t have ‘pretty models’ in them. This is why I don’t do my own shoots often because I know most of my viewers would want ‘pretty’ faces on their dashboards.

To hell with that and hello 2012!